Who wants to put me on a diet?

It's not that I don't know what to eat and what to eat in moderation.  But left to my own devices, I just do not make good choices.  I eat when I'm tired, stressed, celebrating, and in those times, especially late afternoon, I do not make good choices.  And sometimes, I don't even want what I'm eating!  I feel like, if i knew what I had to eat and when I would do ok.  I try to plan (obviously not hard enough) and usually under prepare.  So, you would think the natural solution would be to meal and snack plan for myself.  


I know I've mentioned how my workouts are so much better when I have a plan.  A running schedule for a race, an exact idea of what I should be doing weights wise.  I understand how plans like Jenny Craig and Nutrisystem are attractive, but I don't want to do something like that.  I want to learn how to eat by myself and how to control my cravings.  I just need help with meal plans, mostly snacks and lunch, I'm pretty confident in my breakfast and dinners, as an example, something I can adapt to myself.  I know I will give in, but hopefully that will only be occasionally.


Yesterday, I had a crap run on top of everything.  I got on the treadmill and my mind and body just hurt.  I just felt I couldn't, which was kind of a bummer because I brought with me an interval workout I've really been wanting to try.  So, I got to a nice, round number, 1.5 miles, and called it a morning.  I hate feeling, after leaving a workout, even sometimes a decent workout, that I could have done more, why didn't I push myself more, because I know I'm capable of more.  That didn't stop me from sleeping in this morning instead of going to the gym, but I've already told myself that if I don't make it to they gym during the kid care hours tonight, I'll double up tomorrow.


And, now that all the complaining is out of the way, I can't believe it's February 1st already!  Time to check back on my January goals, and look forward to improving this month.


January
-Complete the Jillian Michaels 30 day shred with K.  We start tomorrow! I did really well the first level.  I joined the gym during level 2, so worked it in with my other workouts.  I did workout a lot during the month, even if it wasn't Jillian all month (after spending money for years on workout DVDs, I've admitted I don't like doing them regularly.  I don't want to be able to quote and predict the  DVD).  We did keep each other accountable when we were both on gchat at the same time!
-Start my half marathon training plan. I haven't started since my training plan yet, since my race is now in May instead of March.  I start in a couple weeks.
-Win my family one month competition to see who can lose the most weight.  I'll be starting the year off right with weight loss and money!  Doesn't that sound familiar from every work challenge I enter?  But for real this time. Thankfully, this has been extended to the end of February.

February
-Continue on with New Rules of Weightlifting for Women.  I am loving this routine.
-For real start half training, so running at least 3 days a week.
-Spin at least once a week.
-Month of water!  No soda for the month.
-Pick a week and meal plan for at least that week.  Hopefully it will be successful and I'll keep going, but I'm just committing to a week for now.